the world isn't hopeless. i know i tend to view where i'm at in reference to where, in my wildest dreams, i want to be, and focusing on that makes things seem hopeless sometimes. of course, the rare glance towards my wildest dreams is a great motivator. quite the predicament.

i talked to Mooner for a while on Tuesday night, for those that don't know he's a friend of my dad's (since grade-school) who was just diagnosed with lunch cancer in mid-December. he should have finished the second chemo treatment yesterday (each round of treatment is five days, four days of pills at home and then the fifth day in the hospital for intense treatment). they'll start running severe diagnostics next week to see how these first two rounds have done, right now they're giving him an 85% chance of beating it, which is very high. we're praying that they caught it early enough, i guess time will tell.


starfish with its arms out in a daze, staring at the stars through an ocean haze.